You guys want a terribly embarrassing story about me that I discovered this year?

So I have always had this weird vague memory of masturbating to this one picture of an actress and being really turned on by it when I was REALLY REALLY YOUNG like.. a single digit child

But I had no memory of who it was or anything. I’m not sharing said photo because it makes me FUCKING EMBARRASSED DHDHDHSHSOAAKAK butttt it was very distinct and I just remembered it in a really general sense because it was one of the first times I remember feeling arousal

And so I watch Hannibal and I’m like “wowwwww who is this woman playing Bedelia I am sooo attracted to her https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤪" title="Dummes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Dummes Gesicht">”

I had also never watched the X-Files or anything (currently watching for the first time now!) at this point so I literally had no idea who she was.

I’m doing my rounds, watching interviews, looking at pictures.. being https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit herzförmigen Augen"> about her and come across THE PHOTO literally for the first time since I was a child and I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach lmao

I was like “oh absolutely not.. this simply cannot be the same PERSON!!!!!” but I know for a fact that it is and now I’ve had to accept that I sexually imprinted on her at like 7 and the attraction laid dormant only to randomly come back and smack me upside the head at 31

Idk why I just admitted to this