for some reason the words touch starved have been popping up in my head lately and i’m like ,, yeah that sounds like me but also idk if it’s just an attention thing or what kinda therapy can tell my why i long for human contact but

like,, i try and hug my mom before i go to work those 2 days a week but other than that i’m alone basically,, unless chloe counts bc i cuddle with her often,, and although i didn’t think so, i’d definitely be a very cuddly and touchy person but i just don’t think i’ve been that

close with anyone,, also could be the fact i have extreme body issues and the idea of touch terrifies me slightly everytime but brain says NEED PHYSICAL AFFECTION NOW! so that kinda sucks

then some nights when i’m laying down and i have my stuffies i do this because,, THE COMFORT is immaculate and nice so yeah

basically the idea of even holding hands with another human being or getting head pats makes me immensely happy so i think that means i am just v lonely

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