For him to film scenes in which he speaks to his ancestors in the afterlife while actually dying in real life is breaking me. We did not deserve the last of him but he gave it anyway. I do not understand.

I want to add that, when I wrote this I was in absolute hysterics. As a disabled/chronically ill person my tears came largely from a place of understanding what it’s like to liberate myself via the choice to hide my health status. I don’t want to project at all that

Chadwick “sacrificed” anything when ultimately, it appears as though he too liberated himself by living his life the way he *wanted* to up until the very end. I admired him before but as someone who understands the struggle of picking and choosing the moments

In which I can/want to just push my illness(es) to the side to simply *live my life*, this loss hurts that much more, and yet I’m so so happy that Chadwick got to make that choice for his own self care. He sacrificed nothing. He got to choose how his story ends and I’m in awe https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🖤" title="Schwarzes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Schwarzes Herz">