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I& #39;m really really really happy to be helping a lot of MTG players with their fitness. This is about WAY more than income for me (though truly I can think of no happier way to make a living, if I can swing that). This is deeply personal. a thread 1/
I grew up a "nerd", played video games and card games and board games but never sports, didn& #39;t move at all if I couldn& #39;t help it. This continued well into adulthood.
Simultaneously I had very powerful self-hatred over my physical appearance for almost my entire life. 2/
Simultaneously I had very powerful self-hatred over my physical appearance for almost my entire life. 2/
I was always bigger. At one point, I got up almost to 300 lbs. The scariest part was I didn& #39;t even realize it was happening.
And yet I was terrified to do anything about it because "I didn& #39;t belong in that world". Gyms weren& #39;t for me, muscles weren& #39;t for me, 3/
And yet I was terrified to do anything about it because "I didn& #39;t belong in that world". Gyms weren& #39;t for me, muscles weren& #39;t for me, 3/
they were for the pretty people who& #39;d always been pretty. The people who didn& #39;t trip and fall 17 times a day (see last night& #39;s tweet, for example) and literally walk into walls. I didn& #39;t *deserve* to be fit, and therefore I shouldn& #39;t even try.
Eventually, and only 4/
Eventually, and only 4/
at the deepest point of my depression, I realized that was all crap. My body, how I looked and how *I* saw *myself* in the mirror was in my control. I had simply never been willing to exercise that power.
Once I did, it changed everything for me. 5/
Once I did, it changed everything for me. 5/
Yes, absolutely I felt more confident and happier with myself. I had more energy and I slept better. But more than anything else I felt as though I was holding up a banner for all those "nerds" who were terrified and intimidated, who didn& #39;t feel like they deserved this. 6/
