I& #39;ve just...understood...that other people can look at people who are strangers and get sexually excited just by how they look. Like...I& #39;ve known that& #39;s a thing but it& #39;s never really sunk in what that means until now.

It& #39;s like realizing how the piggy went to market.

I was reading a book and there was a side character picking up dudes at a bar and somehow that random ass scene made me go...wait...THAT& #39;S what all that means?

This explains why I had trouble with guys until I started to be able to talk to them on the internet. Explains a lot of my friends& #39; reactions to me, too, when I wouldn& #39;t give the time of day to certain guys.

But I don& #39;t know what this means about me, if anything. I don& #39;t know if it matters? I probably just need to process it then go on with my life.