i feel like there’s so much tucked away in my subconscious that i haven’t dealt with properly and its eating away at me

from like the age of 7 until now, idk, i’m dissociating myself from people here, people irl, and for the first time ever, i’m dissociating me from myself.. snd thats so scary because its new and i dont know how to handle it

this is not a pity tweet, i am literally trying to understand whats going on by typing it out one word at a time